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Photo Friday!

Craft Day 009As I promised myself, I will be taking out my camera more!

My Photo Friday pictures are posted on my facebook page at http://www.facebook.com/catholicmomma.

I hope you enjoy them as much as I enjoyed taking them🙂

Pray for me as I pray for you always.
In Christ,
CatholicMomma

Being Home

So, I have meant to write earlier, but I have been super busy.

Today marks 2 weeks officially unemployed by an outside source.

I can’t believe the difference.

Before, when I was home, I wasn’t very good at it.  I would never seem to “get” it.  My house was disorganized, everything was out of control, I never (and I mean never) got out of my pjs.

What a difference this time.  Each morning I have made a point of getting up and getting dressed.  That alone has changed how I feel about everything.

My mother in law (the awesome one I spoke of in an earlier post) came with her sister and helped me organize my kitchen.  Since then I have chosen one room per day to catch up on.  When that is done, I open my day to doing anything else.  It seems to work well for me.

My daughter came down into the kitchen the other day and told me how much she loves the house now.  She said she loves that I am around more, that everything seems to “belong” somewhere.  That it is just more relaxed.

I am more relaxed.

So, although I don’t know what the future holds, for today, I am quite happy that I am right where I am meant to be.

Pray for me, as I pray for you often.

In Christ,

Catholic Momma

I’m Coming Home

So, after two years of working full time with four children, I am officially becoming a stay at home mom.  I am so excited.  And terrified.

I like working.  I feel like I had a job that I was called to do.  It gave me reason to shower, and put on make up.  It pushed me out of my sloppy funk.  I am scared to go back to being home.

I am worried that I will not be good at it.  I see amazing moms all the time around me that I want to strive to be more like them.  I see so many things in our home that I need to do that I can’t while I am working.  My kids need me home.  They are going through some crazy changes.

So I thought, to make things interesting, I would write myself a few things to NOT give up when I stay home this time:

1. Shoes.  I love them.  I see no reason that I can not have cute shoes as a stay at home mom.

2. Fashion.  I want to still be able to be fashionable.  When I was home in the fog of post partum depression I was lucky to get out of pjs let alone dress up.  I was beyond frumpy.  I want more for myself than that.

3. Going out.  I am a home body when I am home.  I like being there.  Unfortunately, it turns me into a bit of a hermit.  I want to make a point of exiting my front door several times a week.

4. Makeup.  Even a little eyeliner helps me feel pulled together.

5. Days with none of these things.  I will be home.  It’s okay to occasionally have pajama days.  I need to allow myself to be able to relax.

6. Photography.  I want to be more intentional about my photography.  I will be adding my photos that I take professionally when I am home.  No more cell phone camera all the time.  I want to crack out my good camera for my family, not just for clients.

Now, I know that these things sound shallow, and in many ways they are.  But they are important to me.  When I lose sight of taking care of myself, everything around me feels worse.  I want to be proud to have people drop into my home.  I want to be able to not be humiliated when I run into other people I know.

I want to be able to serve my family in a way that I simply couldn’t when I worked.  I want to go to playgrounds and zoos.  I want to see them more often.  To volunteer at things.  To surprise them with hot lunches every so often.

We recently have been walking a road with our oldest who has been diagnosed with severe anxiety, ADHD (a subtype without h10569090_10152639588920767_380741062839863542_nyperactivity), and some elements of oppositional defiance.  We have been working with a therapist for the past 6 months or so, we have a psychiatrist, and a psychologist on her team also.  In two weeks we are meeting with her naturopath to have food sensitivity testing and will be framing our home around that as well.  This has been a bumpy walk.  She is so smart that it has been overlooked a lot by many teachers.  I plan to blog more about this later, but I wanted to share this with those of you who have asked.

I am so happy to be able to be home more to support her also through this.

Please just pray that I am not a miserable failure.  I want to be all that I am called to be. I want to build our domestic Church.  I want to live my vocation in the way I am being called at this time.

Pray for me as I pray for you always.

In Christ,

CatholicMomma

I keep seeing the “Things you should know about introverts”, so I thought I would reply🙂

1) We like being around people to get energy.
Extroverts are worn out and feel down and out when no one is around.  We get energy and inspiration from other people.  We LIKE to be around strangers.  It’s awesome for us.

2) Crowd me in baby!
Large crowds of strangers are adventures waiting to happen.  We love them.  We love people.  We get so invigorated by others.  We like meeting new people and hearing new stories.  It is the best thing in life to socialize.

3) Bring on the noise.
Silence makes us tired and worn out.  We don’t talk because we want to fill space.  We talk because we like connecting.  We like hearing what you are thinking and responding to that.  We like conversations about pretty much anything.  Silence is not awkward, it is an opportunity for us to get to know you.  Because (as pointed out in point one) we are inspired by you.  We like hearing about you.

4) Just because we are extroverted doesn’t mean we are brave.
Some people think that just because I like being in a room that I love being the center of the action.  This isn’t the case.  Many extroverts are painfully shy.  They want to meet you.  They like being in a crowd.  But they are too shy to actually do something.  That is a awkward place to be.  Wanting to know everyone, but too shy to talk to them.  Opening up an extrovert is usually not too difficult, but we sometimes need you to make the first move.

5) It is not impossible for us to be quiet.
We aren’t obtuse.  We know that there is a time and place for silence.  We try to be sensitive to other people’s needs.  But unlike an introvert, we need personal connections to recharge.  So if an extrovert has been alone for a long time, it may be like opening one of those popping cans of snakes when they CAN talk.  It gives us energy to connect to people.  Being alone is exhausting for us.

6) We aren’t judging you.
I saw no purpose to change this one.  We aren’t judging you.  We get that you might not be the same as us, and we don’t expect you to be.  But remember tip #3.  We need you to talk to us so that we feel connections and energy.

7) Cancelling plans freaks us out.
Especially really planned out plans.  Extroverts go all out.  We like planning cakes and sandwiches for playdates.  We invite 10 people to our party, but we secretly hope they all bring friends.  Cancelling on us usually means we spent a day or more looking forward to connecting with you, and now we feel like you just don’t think we are important enough to make a priority.  Then we sit sobbing over our customized martinis invented specifically for you on this night out alone.  And see number 3 as to what that does….

8) Every thought may be verbalized by us.
Many extroverts think out loud.  A lot.  There are several trains of thoughts, and we want to share everything.  It’s that reciprocal energy thing.  We put it out there hoping for a response so that we can respond… and round and round it goes.  We love to hear your opinions.  We aren’t trying to be self-centered by sharing everything.  We just like the energy created by lots of people and lots of thoughts.  It’s kind of our thing.

9) We connect.  Like all the time.  
You know when you have had a really bad day and you just want to call up a friend and chat? Call us.  We love it.  We love to talk to you about it.  Even better, we would love to meet with you and talk about it.  And our other friends can come too.  The more people that we can rally to cheer you up the better.  In fact, our solution might be a huge rock concert to make you forget about it.  We tend to get carried away that way.

10) We shut down the place.
We bring donuts and cookies for after the meeting.  Often we are huggers.  We like to talk about the meeting and then talk about everything with you.  Since extroverts tend to be overscheduled, we want to talk to you and we might feel like this is our only chance.  We don’t want to miss the opportunity to let you know that we love you.  We want to hear about your kids, your spouse, your work.  We sometimes get dirty looks from janitors who want to shut the building down.  At which point we move the apres-meeting to a bar or coffee shop (wherever is more crowded).

11) We have strong opinions.
But don’t feel like we are imposing.  We sometimes get so caught up in the energy of teams that we can seem over-bearing.  We don’t mean to be.  The louder we get, the more checked in we are.  It means we are totally engaged.  Please don’t feel like we are trying to impose on you.  We don’t mean to.  We just love being with you.  And him. And her.  And them over there. So much.

Surprised by Joy

tree1So, my silent retreat this weekend was wonderful.  As I stated earlier, I was very much anxious about going.  The Friday afternoon, I was so sick to the stomach that I actually considered not attending.  I went home, took some Gravol and curled up on my bed feeling sorry for myself.  When the medication started to work, I felt much better, and I started on my trip.

God is so faithful.  I was thinking the whole time about how I was feeling in knots about the whole weekend, about the nervousness about being alone and in silence.  I was worried that I would be sent through an emotional rabbit hole that I was not ready for.  You can imagine my surprise when I arrived and found the theme of the weekend was to be “Celebrating the Good in Life”.  A peace settled my heart in that moment.  I knew that, being the gentleman that He is, God invited me to a weekend of rest and of joy.  He just wanted to remind me about all that good stuff that I brush aside sometimes.  He wasn’t going to be putting me through the emotional ringer, only providing for me a soft place to rest.

As you can expect, I rested.  Lots.

There was one lesson though that came to me as I prayed this weekend: Sometimes I treat God like a puppy.  Like I expect Him to come when I call, or to leave when I don’t want him around.  When I was thinking about this, I realized that He is more like a perfect husband, a perfect gentleman.  He provides help without me asking.  He leaves when I need space.  He holds me when I need to be held.  He never kicks down my door, he only gently waits for invitations to come into my life at any given moment.  All the while just patiently loving me as I mess up or turn away, or even as I have a temper tantrum like an infant and get mad at Him.  It is okay for me to be childlike at times, but it is also important to remember that God is not there to be my pet at beck and call.  He is there to pull me into being who I am called to be.  This means at times I need to look at Him with adult eyes and celebrate what I see…

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. ” Cor 13:11

I forget that sometimes I need to also grow intentionally.  I need to commit to being better and not to just letting God pull me.  God works through my hands, my feet, my ears, my eyes.  I need to be sure and intentional that what I do is that which will make the world better.  I mustn’t allow myself to stop at what I perceive to be “good enough”.  God is not calling me to be good enough.  In the words of Pope Benedict XVI: “The world promises you comfort, but you were not made for comfort. You were made for greatness.”  I need to remember that.  I did not stop learning math when I thought I knew enough.  How much greater is God?  How much more is there for me to learn?

I am so grateful that I have walked down the road of faith that I have walked.  I have seen great wonders, and experienced great joys.

On an additional note, this weekend I had many people in my prayers.  Those that asked, I took to the chapel and prayed to the Lord for by name.  I lifted those who may have had prayers unspoken to me.  Finally, I prayed for those whom had no words to pray.  When I left on the weekend, I took about 300 intentions with me.  I assure you, each one of you were prayed for.  Directly and intentionally.  I hope that God blesses you with great gifts and answers to your needs.

If you would like more information about the retreat I went on:  http://www.sanctumretreat.ca/

Please pray for me, as I pray for you often.

Catholic Momma

 

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