I find the hardest part of my week very often is when I sit down to help my daughter with her math. She is so very stubborn, and loses patience with herself very quickly. It is so hard to talk to her, or maintain a sense of peace when each question ends with pencils being thrown or books being slammed shut.
I KNOW she understands this. I see her do it. But even when she does it correctly, she looks up at me and tells me she doesn’t get it.
How much like my faith life is this struggle.
I KNOW what I am called to do. I do it as faithfully as I can. But some days I just look up at God and cry “I don’t get it!”.
And God does the same thing I do with my little ten year old. He assures me that I, in fact, DO get it. That I am doing what is right and good. That I just need to continue to work on it until it becomes so natural that I can do it without thinking.
My faith requires work. It is not a “sit back and let God love me” kind of faith. I feel like I am very truly called to work towards sharing love, growing in love, and accepting love. All of these things come with effort from me. With forming my mind and my actions around what I know to be good and true. Even if I don’t understand, one day I will. One day I will be grateful that God, with his everlasting patience and mercy, took the time to redirect me towards him and remind me that I do understand, and even if I don’t do it right, He will love me anyways and help me to “get it”.
Please pray for me as I pray for you often.
Catholic Momma
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